Another mile

“Another hour deeper in the night
Another mile farther down the road
A man can drive as hard as he can drive
And never get as far as his heart was meant to go”

I’ve been listening to this song, “The River”, by Rich Mullins all week on the way to work and back. Tonight it seemed to sink deep in my soul and take up residence there. It’s as if my soul wrote those words. Sounds strange, I’m sure, but for some reason I can understand what it means that your heart doesn’t get as far as it was meant to go.

Tonight was one of those nights. It was my first venture out with a singles group. Strange. I never thought I would be in the “singles group” again, but here I am. Not feeling single, but the lack of a ring and a partner means I am. So there it is. I’m single.

I did have mixed emotions about going. Part of me was excited, because it was something new. An adventure of sorts and I do so love an adventure. I also love watching baseball live. I’m not sure what it is, but it seems to suit me. Maybe it’s because I loved playing softball so much and so I know the rules of the game, maybe it’s because I have such fond memories of my parents taking us to see the Astros when I was little. Whatever the reason, I was looking forward to getting out and doing something different.

As it turns out, I ended up sitting on the end of the row with a seat between me and the next lady. She had brought a close friend so they were busy chatting away. I have to admit that I kept thinking that I should have taken a friend and wondering why in the world I didn’t think of that. Oh well… maybe next time. The game was slow and disappointing, so after the 5th inning I left.

On the way home, I turned up the volume in the car and Rich and I sang our hearts out as we drove another mile farther down the road.

The road I’m on is unfamiliar and I’m sure it will take awhile to navigate it but at least I’m not alone. God was with me tonight and we had quite the conversation during the game and on the way home. He’s a great date… even though I was at a singles event :-)

5 thoughts on “Another mile”

  1. Sheila, you are a beautiful writer…I know what you mean about ‘the singles thing’ for a long time I didn’t like to go out alone & now I have trouble doing things with others because I have been doing things alone for so many years. I don’t have a very good support group as far as friends & family go…all my family are married & unfortunately we are not real close so they do things with their families & I’m left to myself. I have two wonderful daughters who I have enjoyed doing things with over the past 20 years, but they are now at the age where they would rather hang with their friends…16 & 20 years old! I divorced their dad 17 years ago, but I never once thought I would still be single 17 years later. I used to cry a lot when I was by myself…I never wanted the girls to see me cry, but I don’t do that often now. I hear all the time that God has that special someone for everyone & I’m waiting, but I’m afraid that when he comes along I’ll be at home alone & miss out! Crazy thoughts I know, but this is what I think about sometimes. I’m working on being content being by myself! I’ll stop now, but just wanted to let you know you’re not alone out here & I’ve been praying for you & your family!

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